Uma explicação

Porque realmente vos devo uma. E não, não é uma desculpa esfarrapada.
Durante a minha vida fui tendo algumas desilusões e alterações (como toda a gente) e em algumas delas (consigo identificar claramente três) essas desilusões e alterações encaminharam-se para depressões. Ora, claro que tentei dar a volta e superar essas depressões, e estava mesmo convencida que lhes tinha passado a perna. Acontece que elas não tinham desaparecido completamente, e foram-se manifestando lentamente ao longo dos anos. Ora por um nervoso miudinho que acontecia de vez em quando, ora pela falta de vontade de fazer coisas que antes eu fazia sem qualquer problema, enfim, vocês entendem.
No último mês essas manifestações pioraram bastante e culminaram com ataques de pânico diários (e no final, mais que uma vez por dia) e nervos constantes, mas não os nervos miudinhos, nervos que me faziam tremer de manhã à noite, mãos suadas constantemente e o coração que parecia que queria sair do sítio.
Procurei ajuda (finalmente!) e neste momento estou a tratar de mim. O tratamento está ainda muito no início, mas sinto-me calma como não me sentia há muitos anos.
Peço por isso a vossa compreensão. Não sei quando voltarei a escrever aqui, mas uma coisa é certa, eu vou voltar quando estiver em perfeitas condições psicológicas.

Um grande beijinho para todos e até ao meu regresso (espero que com a cabeça mais organizada ;-))

Ah! Quero só agradecer aqui, publicamente, ao meu maridão que é um espectáculo e me ajuda em tudo (sempre me ajudou!), aos meus pais que fazem tudo para me ver bem e feliz, às minhas manas que estão sempre presentes (apesar de uma viver longe) e a uma colega muito especial que me ajudou a superar vários ataques de pânico e esteve sempre lá quando as coisas não corriam bem. MUITO OBRIGADA!!

Para 2012...

Saber que todos os passos que damos vão de encontro aos nossos desejos. Bom Ano para todos!

Férias!

Ontem nem consegui vir aqui dizer nada. Passei o dia com uma dor de cabeça brutal e cheia de trabalho. Hoje também tive muito trabalho, mas já está tudo orientado para eu poder passar uma semaninha fora daqui!

Não vou escrever aqui nenhuma lista, mas já a tenho feita no meu caderno. É uma lista grandinha mas eu acho que vou conseguir fazer tudo o quero. Também espero conseguir vir aqui de vez em quando escrever algumas coisitas!

Beijoquitas para todas!!

Está aí alguém?...

Olá! Primeiro que nada tenho que pedir desculpa por ter desaparecido. Quando começo a ver que as coisas não correm como quero, a minha tendência é desistir... É mau, eu sei. Mas já estou a tentar mudar e por isso voltei ao blog. Não vou escrever muitas vezes, a minha vida está prestes a mudar e o tempo vai ser ainda mais curto. Mas venho cá escrever com mais regularidade.

E agora que as desculpas estão pedidas, é hora de voltar à organização da minha vida!

Em relação ao último post que escrevi e dizia que sem fazer listas me sentia melhor... esqueçam lá isso. Passei estes meses todos sem fazer listas, a fazer só aquilo que eu via que era preciso, e está tudo na mesma (em alguns casos, está pior...). Portanto, é hora de voltar às listas!! E a primeira é já para este fim-de-semana:

- fazer a lista completa e actualizada de todas as tarefas de casa. (é mesmo andar de divisão em divisão com um bloquinho a tomar nota de tudo)
- limpar a casa.
- lavar roupa, secar e engomar. (a máquina de secar pifou, tenho que secar tudo no estendal e engomar tudo... já podem imaginar a pilha de roupa...)
- preparar a festinha dos meus filhotes, que fazem 7 aninhos na 2ª feira!! (vão ter bolo na escola, a festa para a família é no próximo sábado)
- preparar a semana que vem: roupas, comidas, tarefas.

Sim, é isto que tenho de fazer. E não, não vou desistir!

Dia da Mãe

Para nós, o dia da Mãe foi na 6ª feira. Houve mini-festinha na escola, brincámos muito, fizemos pinturas, bebemos um chá e, no fim, ofereceram-nos as lembranças. Foi muito divertido!

No ano passado os meus filhotes ofereceram-me uns saquinhos muito giros. Este ano tive direito a porta-chaves, eles escolheram os bonecos e pintaram-nos. O Rodrigo escolheu um cão chamado Fofo (está farto de nos pedir um cão, mas não pode ser..), e o Diogo, claro, um hambúrguer (ele é todo virado para a cozinha).

E os meus novos tesourinhos já estão a uso!!

Desejo a todas as Mães um dia muito feliz!!

A festa...

... foi linda! Correu tudo muito bem! Esteve um dia fantástico e por isso pudemos ir para o jardim. Comemorei 35 anos de vida rodeada da minha família toda e dos meus amigos que eu já não via há alguns anos. FOI LINDO! E pelos vistos toda a gente gostou porque tenho andado a receber mensagens de toda a gente a dizer que adoraram a festa. Era suposto ser apenas almoço, mas o dia estava tão bom e o convívio era tanto, que a festa foi até à noite!
Adorei, e vamos concerteza repetir!

Chegou hoje à nossa casa

Será que é desta que eu vou MESMO deixar de fumar?...

Novo hábito

Já estamos na 2ª semana de Março, o tempo passa a voar...

Este mês, o novo hábito que a FLylady propõe é uma coisa muito simples mas que dá muito jeito de manhã: preparar a roupa na noite anterior. Eu já faço isso com a roupa dos meus filhotes há anos, mas para mim... E não há dúvida que dá muito jeito. De manhã, normalmente, é sempre tudo a correr, e ter a roupinha deles preparada para vestir já é menos um stress. Mas depois vou ao meu roupeiro e aí começa o stress. "Camisa ou camisola? Botas castanhas ou pretas? Qual casaco? Brincos? E o relógio? Fios? Não tenho tempo." E vai de enfiar a primeira coisa que aparece à frente. Os brincos são os mesmos há meses (vergonha....) e o relógio também... Mudar de mala então, nem pensar. E depois vou para o trabalho a pensar que podia ter vestido aquela camisola que ainda não usei, ou pôr aqueles brincos que não uso há anos, ou usar aquela mala que comprei há uns meses. Mas a estupidez é que é só mesmo naquela altura que eu penso nisso. Depois, esqueço e só me volto a lembrar na manhã seguinte. No entanto, com os meninos não se põe esse problema. Eles vestem tudo, porque o vestuário é separado e preparado na noite anterior.

Definitivamente, este é um hábito que eu tenho de adquirir. Começar as manhãs sem stress é essencial. E vocês, costumam separar a vossa roupa na noite anterior? Com sapatos e acessórios e tudo? Dá jeito não é? A mim também vai dar! :-)

Desanimada...

É este o meu estado de espírito hoje. Já não estava bem quando acordei porque tive um pesadelo (que implicava coisas más aos meus meninos).Cheguei ao trabalho e fui espreitar uns blogues que gosto muito (e a maior parte ainda não está aqui) e aí dei-me conta que há muitos que estão a publicar o "look" do dia, e que já foram aos saldos, e as coisas giras que já compraram, e tal e coiso....

E depois olhei para mim.....
E pensei na meia dúzia de peças que tenho para usar no Inverno.....

E fiquei pior..........

Ano Novo....

... VIDA NOVA!!!

Porque eu tenho a certeza que este é o meu ano; porque 2009 foi um ano horrível e pesado, muito pesado; porque a minha família merece mais e o melhor de mim; por tudo e mais alguma coisa. 2010 é o ano do recomeço. Um novo início, uma nova vida. Este é o MEU ano!!

- O ano em que vou cuidar mais e melhor de mim
- O ano em que finalmente vou organizar a casa
- O ano em que finalmente me vou organizar
- O ano em que a minha família vem SEMPRE em 1º lugar
- O ano em que me vou tornar uma mãe melhor
- O ano em que me vou tornar uma pessoa melhor

Este é o MEU ano!!!

For the weekend

Well, the weekend is almost here and I can't stop thinking about everything I want/need/have to do. I have to write everything down before I forget something, and what better place to write than my blog?

So, let's start with this evening: wash one lol, unload dishwasher, fold and put away clothes in dryer. Of course I'll have dinner and will have to clean up the kitchen afterwards (I'm convincing myself here). AND I want to do some more of the ripple blanket (I try to do a bit every night while we're waiting for one of the machines to stop washing).
Friday morning I have to get up at 8.30 am the most. Is the last day that I can return the package to "La Redoute" so I really need to go to the post office. Maybe I'll get up earlier and try to start to clean the house, good idea huh? In the evening only one thing is certain: I'm going to paint my nails RED. RED!!This wouldn't be a big thing if I would do it once in a while, but when I paint my nails it's usually white or transparent. So painting them red is a HUGE thing for me.

Saturday afternoon we'll have a b-day party. Other than that is clean the house, do the laundry, iron, play with the kids, date with hubby and ripple some more of the blanket. All this with the nails RED! hehe this should be fun!!

Crochet and knitting projects

Hello, everyone! Last week I was reading my blog (I do that from time to time. Everyone does it right? RIGHT?) and I realised that I didn't show you the finished doilie. I took a picture of it with the intention of making a post with it, but then I got sick and forgot about it. So today I have decided that it was time to FINALLY show you the doilie.

Like I said, it's not perfect, but good enough for me. Since the beginning of Spring, the doilie is on our dining table with the Spring fairies and the fake flower.

The doilie is too small for the table, but for now it works. It has to work because I'm not going to do another one in the near future. Meanwhile, my sweet MIL taught me how to knit, and so I started a scarf.

See? There's me sitting on the couch knitting the scarf. I thought that knitting was not so difficult after all, so I made two scarves. The other one I gave it to my niece.

But now I have another love.

It's addicting and, because it will be HUGE in size, I only hope to not get bored with it (like the "Last Supper", remember?)

There you go. Meet the beggining of my ripple blanket.

Like I said, it will be huge in size. But I think it will be "oh so beautiful" on our bed and I can't wait to have it done.

I feel terrible..

I'm having the worst flu ever. My body hurts, my throat hurts, my ear hurts, I didn't sleep at all last night, so my head hurts too.

I'm at work right now. I didn't want to come but I had a few things that had to be done today, so here am I. But I'm leaving soon. I'll be heading to the E.R. and then, home. If I feel better I'll write from home.

Love you all

So, what have I been up to...

Oh yes, photos again! Let me remind you that these were taken with hubby's cell phone and this was really the best it could do. Now, let me tell you a little story:

Once upon a time (one year ago actually) I was really sad about my life. The house was messy, I felt messy myself; I didn't have the time to do anything I wanted, I didn't have time for ME and my stuff. Then, I decided it was time to change that. And so I started with the house, slowly putting it together: decluttering a few things here, organizing some things there. And then I started to breath again. But I still couldn't find the time for me and my stuff, because when I was at home I had to clean it and keep it organized. That's when it hit me like a bomb:

LUNCH HOUR ON WEEKDAYS!!!!!!!!!

I have one hour and a half for lunch from Monday to Friday, and instead of surfing the net I could do something I truly enjoy. So, 3 months ago, I attacked my parents books and found these

They are from The Readers Digest, and each one has 4 stories. I already read 3 of them, but before I read the others, I came accross these

and I had to buy them. I am now reading "Nights in Rodanthe" by Nicholas Sparks. (That's the second book, in black, see?)
Remember my pot holders? After doing them I wanted to crochet some more. Since I have so much white yarn that I bought several years ago (before the twins were even born, I think) to make doilies, I went thru some of my magazines and I found one doilie that I really like. So, I started doing it.

I don't know when, but it will eventually, become this:


That's a lot of crochet don't you think? But I think it is adorable!! I want to put it on our dinning room table, I think it will be beautiful. The kids are always asking to see if it has grown some more, but I think it will take me a few more weeks (or months actually!) to finish it.

Now my cross-stitch it's a whole other story and I'll tell you all about it some other day...

Thank God It's Friday!!

No matter how the week goes, good or bad, I'm always wishing for the weekend, and you all know why. Anyway, it's raining a lot and looks like we will be having some bad storms this weekend. The perfect weather for staying at home and do lots of things! I am extremely motivated!

Saturday my hubby's parents are coming over for dinner, and he already told me that HE will make it (it's so good when men know and LIKE to cook...) I will probably make a dessert. Sunday is my father's birthday, so we will go over for lunch.

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I've been wanting to show you some things and let you all see what I've been doing, but as you know our camera is not helping. This weekend I'll be taking photos, if not with the *stupid* camera, then it's with the cell phone.

Decisions and changes

I was tired of the other background... and decided to change it. This one is better: it reminds me of Spring! And I can't wait for Spring to come!

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So, me and hubby talked about the "having-dinner-at-my-parents-during-the-week" issue again, and we have made another decision. From this week forward we will only have dinner at my parent's One Night. This has a good side and a not-so-good side. The good side is: I will be able to do something at home during the week and not leave it all for the weekend; the kids will be able to play with their toys before going to bed (something that they always ask for when we get home, but are not allowed to because when we usually get home it's really late and they go to bed the minute they walk in the house). The not-so-good side is: me and hubby will eat dinner at around 10 pm. But then again, we used to do this before we had kids and it's not so bad...

Anyway, now I'll have to come up with a to-do list everyday!! I'm so excited!!! Yes, I am! I love to-do lists, and not having one everyday was really a pain for me! So, what will I be doing today?

Oh, I have so much to choose from... hubby will be cooking tonight...

• wash one load of laundry
• clean real good one bathroom
• clean up kitchen after dinner

I think this will do. I better not make a huge list, I usually get overwhelmed and don't do anything.
Have a good day!

Photos!! Photos!!

Finally, the photos are here!

Remeber I told you that last Saturday we bought some things? Well, here they are:

The baskets for the books. Like I said before, it doesn't have to be pretty, just a designated place for the books that were in the living room. Now when the kids want to "read" one, they go there, take one, and after they're done with it they put the book where it belongs.

The new yarn. Aren't these beautiful?

I think that they can be used both in crochet and knitting. I still have to buy the proper hooks for crochet, and mom said she will give me her knitting needles. I don't know how to knit, but I already have 3 possible teachers: my mom, my grandmom and my MIL. They are all willing to teach me. You know, my grandmom used to crochet and knit a lot. When me and hubby got married she offered us a bedspread that she crocheted. It's beautiful! So when she asked me to show her the pot holders, I did:

They're not perfect, I know that. Just remeber that I don't crochet for a long time AND I was doing this without a tutorial. (I can't tell you how many times I had to UNDO the circular one!)

Anyway, this is what I wanted to show you!

I knew it wasn't a good sign...

...as I woke up with a terrible headache yesterday! Hubby left to Spain at 3 am and I just couldn't sleep well after that.


At 8 am I had 2 kids claiming to be "starving" and wanted breakfast pronto. So I dragged myself out of bed to prepare breakfast for us, and after a miraculous pill I started to feel better and ready for the day.
We went to look for some shelves for the kid's books (these are still in the living room...), something simple and in plastic. So we headed for the cheaper stores near home (there's four in the same street!) to look for the shelves. But we had NO LUCK.
When we got home the kids wanted to watch "Snow White", so while they watched it I started to clean the house. Gave it a good much needed clean.
After lunch, while the kids were taking a nap, I organized a few things in our bedroom and then ironed every single piece of clothe that was waiting to be ironed. You know when you're doing something "in automatic" and your mind just starts to think about something, and you don't even notice that you're doing what you're doing? That's what happened to me. I was thinking that I had to talk with the kids about grandpa, and then I realized that I just had ironed everything. So when the kids woke up from their nap and after they ate I told them that I needed to talk to them about something very very important and very serious too. I told them that grandma Helena was staying at grandma Ana's house and they immediately asked me about grandpa António. I said that first he was very ill in the hospital and then he went to Heaven. And then one of them asks me: "Because he died?" I was in shock because I had no idea that they knew the "when people die they go to Heaven" thing. But, apparently, their teacher had already talked to them about that, which made my life a lot easier. I made all the recommendations to them: don't ask about grandpa to grandma Helena; she's very sad because she misses grandpa, so if she doesn't wanna play with you it's ok; etc. Their response: "Ok mommy. Can we play now?" I have to say that I felt relieved. I thought that I had to explain everything to them, and I was prepared to do it, but the fact that they already know what happens makes things easier.
Hubby got home at 3 am, so after I put the kids to bed, I started crocheting a scarf with a new yarn I bought last Sunday, until hubby got home.

I'm happy!!

Tomorrow I'll be staying home, I'm not going to work outside!! I always love to stay home! Of course I would be happier if I could NEVER work outside our home, but I can't have it that way so I'm just happy that I can miss one day!

I'm trying to make a plan for tomorrow, you know, just a simple to-do list. But I'm finding it hard to do. I just can't decide what to choose. Between cleaning, organizing, crafting, reading, etc... I don't really know... Maybe a little bit of each?! And also, the kids will be home with me SO I'm not really sure what they will allow me to do.

Oh! I can't wait to be home!! One thing will not be good though, hubby will be in Spain on business. This means that I will be extremely worried until he gets home in the evening. Well, I guess I will just work, work, play with the kids and then work some more just for the day to run faster and he'll be home with us.

Geezz... my brain is working full speed! I just have so many things that I would like to accomplish tomorrow..... I know that this is NOT a good sign. Usually when I am like this I can't do half of what I want, I just stare at things without knowing what to do first. Well, let's see how the day will go. Maybe I'll take some pictures of what I ACTUALLY can accomplish.

Happy New Year!

A new year is starting. It's time to make new resolutions and believe that this is the year where everything will change for the better.

My list:

- Stop smoking. For good.

- Have more Family time.

- Sell the house and buy a new one.

- Organize the house.

- Dedicate time for crafts.

What's on your list?